The Rule Breaker 1

    You know there will always be this guy who’s going to be different. You can read all the play books for men but none will ever suit him. No advice in the book works for you, he’s just the rare type, and doesn’t act like other guys, just a mysterious fellow. You expect him to do this and he does that. He just seems to blow your mind every single day. Leaves you confused and wondering. Sometimes you ask yourself if you’re on the right track with this guy. Just when you decide to let go boom!!!!! He makes that killer move and wins you back. See this happens all the time and there’s nothing you can do about it. Truth is we will never get to understand men fully. Let’s take me for example. I met this guy, not super cute but perfect for me, my dream guy but……. There will always be a but here that’s because he’s not the ordinary type. He’s way too different; we started out as friends, no strings or emotional attachment. From the start he went against the normal “dude behavior”. Who hangs out with a hot chick and doesn’t make a move. Who does that? Yh I know you’re surprised, he didn’t. Anyways I couldn’t wait much longer I made the move. Took the bold step, very easy, ok it wasn’t that easy I couldn’t tell him to his face that I liked him, so I waited for him to leave the country. He was far away from me, I felt pretty safe. I told him over the phone that I liked him and wanted to explore and take adventures. Not to places though, I meant my body, my heart and his too. He was cool with it, no objections, but it had to be a secret we didn’t want any drama or awkward situation.  Eager me I said yhhhh.

You ever heard of that kiss that takes you to mars and back to earth, gives u flutters, makes you feel the spark? Ohhhh boy!! I had one just like that. When he got back I was sure happy to see him. Things were just as planned. Only there was no plan. Yh I can remember everything that happened that night. We talked, played, took pictures, laughed, it was so cool. It was time for him to leave, as usual I walked him to the door –not really a distance- already said to myself that nothing was going to happen. And then he said “come here” used those fingers to control me. I leaned in closer so did he and then he kissed me. That kiss I was talking about, there it was, so magical like I had my first kiss again, felt like a high school girl and it was wonderful. He left, leaving me on the bed to think. I kept on replaying the kiss in my head, did this for a million times I think, Yh let the adventures begin

I know your probably wondering why I’m telling you all these. I just think it’s an interesting story. And it will help you understand when I say this one is rare specie. I’ll call him the “rule breaker”. You notice how he broke the rule first. He let me be in charge. Men like to be in charge. They see something they want they go for it. He sure did want me but nahhhhh he did nothing. Still trying to understand him though.

Back to the story. The adventures started. It became a routine. Every night we met to make out. Was really risky because we were still trying to hide things. But something was still not right. It was just like I was in charge, I kept calling the shots. I like my man in charge. There I go again, he wasn’t my man, and I wanted him to be though. Umm… that’s by the way. I found it quite interesting, the whole thing very new to me. Secret meetings, locking my chats, but I sure did enjoy it, it’s what I wanted. He didn’t really like me then, I was just one of those hot girls drooling over him. He had many at that time, still does. He made me really happy. I sat one day all by myself thinking, was all this right? Was I doing the wrong thing to be happy? Was I blocking away others because I wanted to be happy? Came up with a decision to call it off, because it seemed like I was the only one interested in the whole thing. But then I put my happiness first and decided to stay put.

A secret it was meant to be, but for how long? Ever seen a girl in love? That glow and shine that emanates from her will tell you, the smiles and laughter. Was getting weak on my own side. People began to wonder. “Why are they always going out together?” why why why why. Some figured it out others are still trying to, good luck with that. It’s in their playbook that when a guy likes a girl he tells his pals, even if he’s trying to keep it a secret at least he tells one pal, nope he didn’t. He told no one, like I was something to be hidden. I told my girls!! Damn I didn’t mind, just needed to let the love out. He didn’t see the need to, he broke another rule.

Things started changing; someone was getting to like me back. How did I feel? Hmm that was a nice feeling. All I could say was finally! Finally things were getting good; it still felt like I was in charge here.